It was a Saturday, several years ago; I don’t remember where I had been that morning, possibly work.
As I headed for home, I began to worry about how I was going to buy groceries for us. Given the fact I was a single mom of four kids, we were really tight on money until my next pay day. I started talking to God about it; about how He tells us in the bible not to worry because He is our provider. I believed that with my whole heart; as long as we are doing our part, too. I felt like I was doing all I could as a single mom; working full time at a factory. I even worked Saturdays when the option was there. I was due a check any day now.
So, as I pulled up to my mailbox, I fully believed that there would be a check in there that would cover the cost of groceries. God told me so, right? He did say that He was my provider and would meet all our needs.
Before I go on, let me paint a picture of the place I lived in at the time. It was a single wide, mobile home with a big tree out front. You couldn’t fully see the front of our home until you drove around the tree to the parking space by the porch. My mailbox was at the bottom of the drive.
Ok, back to the mailbox. I just KNEW there was a check in that mailbox because God provides all our needs and I needed some money! I opened it up and thumbed through the different envelopes only to find there was no check. I double checked just to be sure; but nope, no check. I lost it. Right there along side that gravel road by my mailbox, I broke down and had it out with God. I let Him know how frustrated I was because I was doing all I possibly knew to do and yet our needs weren’t being fully met. I let Him have it; like it was His fault that check wasn’t in that box.
After letting it all out, I collected myself and drove up the drive. As I drove around the big tree up to my porch, my eyes gazed upon numerous bags of groceries sitting on my front porch. (Remember that I wasn’t able to see my porch from the road due to the big tree)
Well, I lost it again. I sat in my car for several minutes crying and sobbing to God (AGAIN). I felt horrible for letting Him have it just seconds before. I told Him how sorry I was for ever doubting Him; because He HAD met my need. He met me right where I was in that very moment. (Don’t get me wrong here. God does want us to let it out to Him. He cares about all of our feelings and emotions. That’s what makes Him so great)
You see,the key here is that He doesn’t always meet our needs the way we think they should be met. I have no idea who placed those groceries there that day, but what I do know is that God met our need. What makes it even more special is that He brought the groceries right to my front door. I didn’t even have to spend the gas money to go get them. What an awesome God we have!
Those groceries lasted about three months. (That’s a lot of food given there were five of us!) Those groceries also allowed my children to see first hand the provision of our mighty God. To this day, my two older son’s remember very well the bags of groceries and my younger two know the story.
I don’t know your immediate needs but God does. I don’t know how He plans on meeting those, but He does. And if you believe and trust in Him, He will meet those needs. Because He tells us He will and God doesn't lie!
Matthew 6:25-34New International Version (NIV)
Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.